This is my 160th entry. Anyway.

It's been quite a long time since I felt the way I feel today. Waking up in the morning and thinking it's just another day. Got to do homework, got to think of combined cell this sunday, got to think of what business to start for Basic Entreprenuer and where to get the information of my raw materials, fixed costs and such. Maybe a seafood business? Maybe a chocolatier? Maybe an online business? At the same time, I'm importing the Hillsongs HOPE disc into my iPod. Haiz, it's been a long time since I woke up and feel like crying for the whole day. My schedule, now that school is starting and getting heavier, is just messing up my hormonal levels. I mean, everything's just pushed back so much that I thought I would miss it for this month. But then...

More chocolates and nuts for me. And more water to keep from break outs.

Then my mum came home, screaming. Both dad and her rushed into my room, where I sit glumly and started hugging me and messing up my hair. Apparently they got a letter from TP, inviting them to an Academic Award Ceremony 2006. When my dad announced I got an academic award, I was like..."another award?"

The first thoughts were SAC had some unfinished business with me, but then, I saw the TP logo. Turns out that I am one of the top 10% of the cohort who made it to the DIRECTOR'S HONOURS LIST for the academic year 2005/2006.

And the sad thing is...I'm not even slightly happy or surprised or excited. In fact, I'm like...'oh ok. Got to call the dentist and cancel the appointment.'

WHAT HAS HAPPENED???

I guess that's the result of taking too many awards every year. Or something. I don't know.

I'm just happy that I passed all of my subjects, even got a couple of distinctions and As. And one C. But that's all, I don't expect to get anything in return. Why I bother to get good grades is a mixture of pride, keeping up my reputation and hoping to graduate with merit. Which I'm pretty doubtful of but see where God leads larh. If it is of His will that I graduate with merit and go to a good university...ok. If not, I'm more than happy to finally get out of school life and start working.

Hopefully by 20 May, which is the date of the ceremony, I'll get my jacket altered so that my formal clothes look presentable...by that time, Shisheido would have given us our make up lesson...and I should have gotten used to my court shoes. More or less.

There's something I wanted to write...but I can't remember what. Keeps slipping whenever I get close. Ohhh! Yesh. As I was saying, I woke up quite sober. And then this thought came over to my mind as I was reading the newspaper article on young people suiciding and Singapore ranking 26th in that. And that is...whom shall I invite for my funeral?

Well...I guess it'll be what's left of my friends and relatives. And church members. Maybe my children and grandchildren, if I have any. I can't decide between 'My Tribute' and 'Thank you for giving to the Lord'. Which would be better to play during the funeral?

Or perhaps I should have that victory march by...some composer, which I found in one of the Fantasia series. Or 'Still' or "Angels" by Hillsongs.

I would like written on my tomb stone- "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept my faith. (2 Timothy 4:7) Finally a good rest." I would also have to ensure the photo of me looks presentable...Plus, I also want my funeral to be evangelistic. =)

And if some non-christians want to burn anything for me...BURN SUBWAY COOKIES. And Famous Amos cookies, and chocolates (not semi-sweet or dark though). Hahaha.

I'm tempted to offer myself up for the cake assistant job in the bakery near my house. And what for when my schedule is so tight already? I guess...I also don't know. Haiz.

Mum recently bought a spraying thing and stuck it in the outside toilet, meaning- not the master bedroom toilet. It's quite a powerful thing. The molecules can somehow diffused into the whole house so at every corner (probably even under the bed), you can smell it. The first time I smelt it, I thought it was quite similar to one of my perfume. But then, the more I smell it, the more it smells like a toilet.

It's quite depressing. Really.

WARNING: My thoughts are all in a mess now. So forgive me if this entry doesn't make sense.

It rained the whole day today. So with wet jeans, my friends and I entered into lecture about 5 minutes late. Dr. Lee was at least, well...he was understanding about it. Tomorrow my friends will be ponning, so I guess I'll be alone again.

many thoughts and emotions

running through now since i woke up after a violent nightmare.

it's been so long since my last one...why today? why all of a sudden today? spiritual attack? or perhaps it is simply my mind.

once again

unexplanable.

it is so wierd because on one hand, you're struggling everyday, telling yourself that you can do it and yet feeling so wretched and helpless and...just downright tired. you sleep, you try to take a nap but you wake up feeling like you worked hard the whole night. yesterday i pleaded in my prayer, just this one night of rest yet i had a violent, violent, seriously violent nightmare. and i 'wake in a sweat and a hell of a fright', quoted by T.S. Elliot.

but on another hand, when you're most tired, people starts coming to you. and you know, no matter what you feel, no matter how crappy, you can't turn them away.

in the end

i don't even know what i feel. happy? tired? satisfied?

every tiny thing just irritates me. loud voices, indecisiveness...but i'm trying. really, i am. i'm not the most patient person but i try to be. i try to explain and make people understand instead of just wringing my hands and giving up. maybe i've scared some of you by what i say, by my frankness. but there is no point disguising or watering down the truth. what for? the truth is the truth, if you can't take it, then it is your problem. for example, the red curtain dance during easter production. it may be brutally terrifying to small kids and shocking, with all the screams and the faces and hands pressing over red lycra. but if this is frightening, what more hell? hell is so much worst than what we portray. perhaps we will never be able to see how truly truly terrifying hell is, as we are unable to see how beautiful heaven's glory is.

before year 2 starts, rachel and i settled down and prayed and worshipped and this is given to us- Isa 40:30-31 [Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.]

I suppose I am slowly understanding what it means to be weak but yet strong. when you're just so tired you want to cry but yet you cannot cry because you cannot justify your crying and you're just too tired to cry and the only thing pushing you on is simply that the next day you might feel better and that you're doing this for God...then you will realise you're just stripped out of everything.

My passion, my friends...sometimes even the kind of power that I'm so used to, being a student leader all my life. i was slapped, figuratively speaking, last night during cell because of that. and then you see just how darn pathetic you are.

And how great God is. i may never understand why things happen the way they did or why some people's actions just doesn't seem to be rational but i do know that God isn't a reckless driver.

I am humbled by that. I don't know if my message went across to the cell yesterday about surrendering. I was just so desperate to say it out, to let it be known. In fact, judging by the reactions i get...i don't think they understand. like i said, words alone aren't enough. you must go through it, you must feel it.

or did what i say too deep for the group to understand? perhaps it is...sometimes, that's what i feel.

when you went through it, you will see what i saw. you will feel what i feel. i'm not losing my mind or losing my senses. but such a topic as this, it is so so hard to explain to those who hasn't been through it before, i just felt like breaking down in front of cell. and it's so damn frustrating because you just want to slap their faces and wake them up. you want to be a great christian you'd better start sacrificing.

actually, you don't have to. when the time comes, you will be stripped away. i would even say, forced to surrender.

i don't mean to be bitter, though i was when it happened. i admit i was even angry when i realise i had no choice but to give up, if i ever want to serve God. But i don't regret. What is more important to you? which would reap more harvest?

i can only pray that when you go through this, your eyes will be open to see it, not from your point of view, but from God's. I can only tell you, maybe guide you but ultimately, whether you want to accept it and walk it, it is up to you. In the end, your bitterness and anger is only of your own doing.

there are so much more that i wish to say here but

i don't think they are appropriate.

i need time alone.

Lately, I've been having a craving for nuts- hazel nuts, brazil nuts, almond...especially pistachios. Yeah...sooo delicious when done to prefection. Crunchy yet a little bit chewy, with a lightly salty but heavy butterish taste. I hope heaven has them. =)

Below is probably what most people have been wanting to know: My current school.

The Tourism Academy of Singapore is a pretty spacious campus. It is an attraction by itself, visitors are known to drop by to either use the toilets (which requires a four digit code) or to eat at our small canteen but it serves really cheap AND tasty food.

The buildings (A to G) aren't big, they are only two storeys high. The classrooms are incredibly cold despite the heat outside and so far, no monkeys, peacocks, squirrels or moniter lizards have intruded. It's quite a nice place altogether, the scenery is rather pretty, despite construction! I think the campus is a little above ground level. We can see the merlion (as in the big one with the rays coming out of its eyes at night) too! And somewhere near us is Volcano Land. TAS also has a fine-dining restaurant called Restaurant in the Square that operates from 11.30am to 2pm, open to anyone including students in the campus. There is also a small outdoor cafe called Petite Square where we mainly serve finger food. This one operates from 10.30am to 2pm. Both are our training grounds for Culinary Science as well as Service Skills Methodology. Half of the class will be cooking, the other half will be serving.

Someday, on a weekend or public holiday when we pop down to Sentosa, I might show you around the campus. =)

School ended at 11am on monday although mondays end at 6pm. But this being first week of school, quite slack larh I guess, apart from the heavy, heavy lectures with teachers who tend to repeat themselves like a broken record. It's going to be so eventful. Every monday I go for Service Skills Methodology. I have to wear court shoes, stockings and the uniform which I have to iron and change in the campus. Plus, I will also need to find a way to manage my hair so that no fringe falls over my face and I will need to apply on light makeup. Haiz.

More facial masks for me. I hope I will get to age gracefully. >.> ( Hey, they rhyme!!)

Anyways.

I plan to sleep by latest 11pm. That is, after a quick stretching session and prayers. Which means, I got to do them by 10.30. So if you still see me at that time, PLEASE GET ME OFFLINE! I really need to instill discipline, I need that regular rest. I need to run!! I need to keep in shape.

And now, I need to do my Accounting homework.

Holy Spirit come and have your way in me.
Fill me with your passions and cause my life to be
Daily living for you, a life of purity,
Following my Jesus and walk in victory.
Holy Spirit fire, purify your child,
To live a life of worship, set my heart on fire.
Have your way in me, fulfil my destiny.
This is my desire; Lord be glorified in me...

-Holy Spirit Fire by Terrence Ho

Despite the blue black and the split nail (plus achieving one more but small bleed bruise)...the dance was quite a success! I had so many people coming up and saying the dance is good. =D It paid off, folks! All our blisters, our muscle aches, our blue-blacks, our effort...Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you. But it'll be quite sad. I don't think there will be anymore performances up until Christmas. Which means, I get to concentrate on other things like Poly cell and school. But it also means not seeing Suejen and Joanna often...=( I'll miss you girls loads...let's try to make it together for Christmas!

It was tough to continue to smile today because I was just so tired, so I'm really glad that I got a ride home because I was also carrying alot of things. And. My lips were super dry, so when I smiled, sometimes my lips will get caught by the braces. I er, also tend to get a lot of wedgies. And the bad thing is my pants just nicely hug my skin. -_- So unglam, haha. I hope since the lights are quite dim and our outfits were black, I really hope no one notices. Haa, I have yet to find a successful way of undoing wedgies secretly in public. And singing and dancing at the same time is just so strenuous that by the time the first song is halfway through, I'm already panting and mouthing the lyrics instead. I can't say how we did because I was so absorbed in dancing...but I'm sure we did a good job.

Poly Cell won best cell attendance. How is this possible sia?? But then...what is the criteria for the best cell attendance? If it is the most number of cell members per Highlife Event then poly cell will have failed terribly. But if it is the most number of regular cell members attending for cell then, I guess yeah we have the highest attendance since I think we are the largest cell.

Anyway. I got tagged by Alicia to do this quiz. What to say? Girl arh, you want me to copy and paste and do the quiz but I can't even right click on your blog! Haha.

Name twenty people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you have written the names of all 20 people. OK tag at least 5 people. Ready? Start?

1: Alicia
2: Suejen
3: Cartan
4: Mei Yi
5: Cheryl
6:Dad
7: Mum
8: Caroline
9:Joanna
10: Eugene
11: Celine
12: Allison
13: Nigel
14: Wei Keat (TP)
15: Wei Keat (HL)
16: Minfeng
17: Amy Kwek
18: Rachel
19: Sigit
20: Renhao

Here are the questions...

How did you meet 14?
We were in the Singapore-Malaysia First Aid/Home nursing competition. Trained for about a year...then we entered into the same school and course! Ahaha, just found out that he will be in the same class as me tomorrow (ie. year 2).

What would you do if you've never met 1?
Er...life goes on as usual? Haha...I don't know. I guess I wouldn't feel as belonged in the cell as I feel now.

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
Ahahaha. I can only say, all the best. I hope both prayed to God first before deciding to date.

Did you ever like 19?
He's my cousin...-_-

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
NO! I FORBID MY DAD TO HAVE AN AFFAIR! I WILL SHOOT HIS MISTRESS!

Describe 3.
Sweet, caring, kind, loving, NAIVE (hahaha)...I'm so glad you are one of my besties!! =)

Do you think 8 is attractive?
...I can't say anything man, I see her everyday since we live in the same house and we sleep in the same room...she's ok larh. =D

Tell me something about 7.
She's the best mother! Even when I throw a tantrum or I screamed at her or I got angry with her, she is usually the first to make it up to me...I feel sooo guilty....

Do you know any of 12's family?
I know her husband? >.>

What's 8's favourite?
Currently addicted to Word of Warcrafts. Answers the question?

What would you do if 18 confesses he/she likes you?
...I will pray for deliverance! I will send a pastor to her! She's my sister in christ! One whom God has sent my way, one I have very very close fellowship with.

What language(s) does 15 speak?
English and chinese? I don't know if he speaks any dialects...

Who is 9 going out with?
Her friends?? I don't know. But taking another meaning, she's single at the moment.

How old is 16 now?
Same age as meee.

When is the last time you talked to 13?
Just this afternoon, during the catered lunch period of Highlife 5th Anniversary.

What is 2's favourite band/singer?
...I don't know...maybe Lifehouse?

Would you ever date 4?
Noooooo! She's a girl!!

Would you ever date 7?
That's just super super sick larh.

Is 15 single?
I...think so.

What's 10's last name?
Koh.

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
We are friends. Haha. NO, OBVIOUSLY NOT. Why does this quiz have so many relationship questions deh??

What school does 3 go to?
TPJC

Where does 6 live?
Where I live.

What's your favourite thing about 5?
She's a funny girl. Haha, weird excuses, even wierd ideas and suggestions. =D

Have you seen 1 naked?
No and not interested.

Five people that are tagged: Cartan, Mei Yi, Cheryl, Suejen and Minfeng.

I do believe my KFC dinner is here! Off to eat!

Ohoho. I got this from Suejen's blog. http://www.greaterquest.com/LoveLanguages.asp

And here's my results.

10 Words of affirmation
8 Quality Time
5 Acts of service
4 Physical Touch
3 Receiving of gifts.

Quite true larh, haha. Though I suspected it myself when I was doing the quiz. BUT that doesn't mean you can stop giving me presents!

Haha. Joking.

Crap. I got a blue-black on my palm, just below my third finger. To think I hit my tambourine so hard that the blood vessels under burst...man. How am I to dance tomorrow??But God will make a wayyyy. I also split my nail, under the nail I mean. Painful...but...I'll survive. If I have survived horribly sprained feet till they are swollen and red and I can only limp... and 3 blisters on a foot, 2 on 1 toe...I can surely survive split nails and contusions.

The most, on monday my hands are invalid.

Speaking of monday, school is starting. I HAVE TO GO SENTOSA SO EARLY IN THE MORNING! You won't be seeing me in TP. The new semester brings new things...many new things. Spiritual, emotional...a period of a lot of growth I suppose.

And in the midst of it all, I shall take pride in my work, I shall take pride in my assignments and projects and I shall take pride in my household. What are the rules laid down for me? I guess I haven't really got the time to think. But my first rule is God always. Coming close second is taking pride in all that I do.

Telling people I am a neat freak, I better live up to my name. I guess, more reasons for Xiu Mei and her little bunch of girls to call me Cindy-rella. Haa. My tooh aches each time I bite into the preserved mangoes because I just tightened braces yesterday. Yet...I'm still eating. Firstly it is because I'm really addictated to these, Singapore preserved mangoes sucks. Secondly, I'm a selfish git who is currently trying to finish the whole packet of preserved mangoes before my family can touch them. Hee hee hee.

Lord forgive me.

I'm giving you my heart and all that is within.
I lay it all down for the sake of you my king.
I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my rights.
I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life.

I'm singing you this song, I'm waiting at the cross.
And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss,
For the sake of knowing you, for the glory of Your name,
To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain.

And I surrender all to you, all to you.
And I surrender all to you, all to you.

-Surrender by Higher Praise

Ben send me this lovelyyyy song...THANK YOU!! Haha, I'm really humbled when I hear it. It means a lot lot lot to me, what I'm going through, what I've been going through, what I will be going through. The ultimate Jesus Freaks, the martyrs, called to die because of their faith...their stories are amazing. That they have come to a point where they completely loved Christ so much more than their lives, where they realise pain and suffering is nothing because all they have has already been surrendered to God. Nothing can take away their love for God, nothing can take away their faith. And that's what I want to keep in mind.

Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be given unto you. Discipline, discipline, discipline. In all that we do. It doesn't matter if I have no clique in church, it doesn't matter if I cannot serve in any ministries, it doesn't matter if I have to give up all my passions...all that we have is God's, He takes and He gives as He pleases. Once again, He is not fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose. - Jim Elliot, speared by tribal men while trying to evangelist to them. His wife later brought these men to Christ.

Today cell, we talked about the changes in us after we accepted Christ and become a Christian. I guess...my biggest change was when I stopped talking bad about the christians and catholics and RE (ie, religious education) in SAC. When you enter my room, you'll see papers on which is written worship song lyrics, bible quotes, spiritual laws, fruits of the Spirit...etc. No, I haven't been possessed. It's just that I've finally found myself, and I've found my life and my God. Such things just cannot be condensed into mere words spoken in a few minutes. I'm speechless on how and where to start. I don't know, it's all too overwhelming.

And all of this takes place in the past 2 years. Incredible.

I cut my hair liao, it's short and makes me look super young. And sooo, I don't really know how to dress up in this hairstyle. Haha, I'll work something out. I hope.

Cartan is super crazy for studying until this late. This late refering to 1.46 am. Babe, go sleep early, wake up early and then STUDY. Don't stress yourself out too much, you'll look haggard you know.

Anyway, I tripped 3 times today. -_- Embarrassing but...no matter. After all, no one knows me there, hee hee. Went shopping with my dad after watching my sister's concert.

It was raining super heavily in the afternoon and my hair was already quite wet...so dad and I hailed a cab down to Victoria Concert Hall and the taxi fare was...$2.40. Hahaha, we paid the driver $4 since he was sooo nice to us, and also because it was already 2pm and concert starts at 2. The younger band members weren't as good. I mean, quality wise. There were some parts where they didn't harmonise at all, so that part didn't make much sense to me...nonetheless, the repertoire was great~ Gilgamesh was super good, I mean...yeah. The music unfolds a story...something like the Passion of Christ. The music, not the movie.

Anyway, after that, dad and I went to Funan and got lunch at Surf'n Turf. I LOVE THEIR PORTIONS. The main course itself is very expensive though, most are price around $20 and above. And for an additional $3.90, you can add a hot heart soup (they give a very generous amount of soup sia...it's the biggest amount I've ever seen a restaurant giv) and soft drink of your choice. I had cream of wild mushroom and dad had clam chowder. For main course, I got baked seafood casserole and dad had cheese and steak sandwich. Then soft drinks. And...I have to tell you...I couldn't finish my food. Ok larh, I mean these days I've been cutting down on my intake since I'm not exercising as much but I was so hungry and yet I couldn't finish, was too full to do so. The food is good, some are larh...since they specialize in steak and seafood, that's the thing to go for.

After a good good lunch (we were the only ones in the restaurant...), we went up to Challenger where dad was trying to find a wireless hard disk so that all the laptops and computer at home can be connected to our collection of music and movies. In other words, we can simply watch or listen to them via a simple click of our mouse, no need to source out the CDs. I'd prob want a husband who knows technology. Hoho. Our 2 laptops (mine and dad's) are connected to the computer, so if we work on the computer we can simply transfer the files wirelessly to our laptops. Also, our whole house is a wireless network. =) Dad was also really sweet in buying me Belkin iPod Nano cover which is made of leather. Yayyyy, Belkin is branded product...we also bought Brothers Grimm which is quite a good show. Quite. But I don't regret buying it. Luckily, I stopped dad from buying House of Wax...

Anyways...I feel really bad that dad spoils me a lot. I mean, whatever I want, I just have to ask and then it's given. I'm truly blessed that my family is like that...that they don't believe in caning but in reasoning. Thank God my ballet teacher came along, if not I would have been really spoilt. Easter is coming and my besties are ocming to watch meeee!! Yesh cartan, I'm really honoured~ You might get shocked haha, but no matter. It's something so different and that's why I'm really excited. And I'm happy because I GET A RIDE TO CHURCH. Meaning, I don't have to hail down a cab at 6 plus in the morning. I thank God for Renhao, who stays near me and is always so generous and thoughtful in sending me to and from church. =) Thank you~

In a few days time...I shall be able to accomplish what I've been wanting to do for about 2 months now...

I can cut my hair!!

Haa...yesh. Been held back due to Open House and Easter Sun. Michelle needed my hair long so it's easier to style. Am going shopping with Celine after dance pract for foundation. And MY MUM IS COMING HOME!! I want to go shopping for formal pants with her before next sun...I want to bring her to Surf'n Turf for a nice nice dinner, the whole of us 4 family members or to cook a 3 course meal for her since we haven't celebrated her birthday. I want my NANO NANO sweets which are only found in Indonesia.

I want to go back to Surabaya...=( I miss it so much... I miss the mountains and shopping centres and...FOOD. Yeshhh. But when will I be able to go back on vacation? School starts in 2 weeks' time...Time passes fast...it's now 2.09 am. I shall sleep.

/edit: WHY ARE YOU POSTING AS XIAO MING???Oh my gosh...super wu liao. -_-'' hahaha. Oh, I just found out from Alicia that Sherron actually put in 15 to 16 toffees and Isaac 15 toffees, not 13. My bad. Also, I had some minor edits in the post.

For your information, xiao ming is neither a person nor my friend. He is simply a fictional character whom I have no idea why people associated with me. Therefore, he is also not my bf.

Poly camp is finally DONE.I never thought the day would come..but...IT CAME!!!Haa...last night camp.

Thank God for the weather, that it didn't rain so BBQ can proceed smoothly...yeah. =) Games didn't go as well as I would have loved them too. Partially because most of the girls were too sian to run about, and the sun was super hot so now I have my slipper imprinted on my feet.

But nevermind, dinner was great~ Haa...

I will start from the begining. I stuck myself in celine's house to do last minute work but at least I managed to get about 8 hrs or so of sleep. Though it is still wayyy toooo earlyyyy forrr meeeee. But hey, we got there on time. The guys were 50 minutes late but nvm. I suddenly remembered this brilliant forfeit called "chubby bunny" and so after a short (super sabo-ing game!!), 3 people had to do the forfeit. Alicia failed, haha. Only 8 toffees and then all she can say was "ur uh ah " and some other incoherent words. Isaac fared a little better...but Sherron..wow. About...13 or more toffees in his mouth and still able to speak as though he had none. His mouth capacity is incredible sia.

Anyway, games followed then we went to chalet early and I WAS THE FIRST TO BATH! Hahaha...aiya. I shall admit that as a typical SAC girl, I am the first to enter the toilet and the last to come out.

Bathing done, I walked about the place to see if I can help out in anything but...there was nothing much to do. How could you accuse me of slacking???? And I was completely shocked when our head chef became shirtless suddenly. When did that happen?!

I realise I'm less of an observer as I used to. Yesterday, so many things came to my attention which I never ever noticed before...like Ron's hand. I honestly never saw it before until he asked me to pass him something and then I saw and I was like...blank.

Yeah.

Anyways. BBQ over, night session, I had to lead discussion...and by the time the group starts opening up, Dickson was signaling time's up. So we went back and gathered into groups to pray. Called a new girl to pray but then...she was silent for a long long time. So...I simply closed in prayer haha. Guess she prayed silently or...maybe she wasn't all that prepared? No matter...after night session...OUR WHOLE NIGHT WORSHIP WAS GONE.

Most of the girls went off to watch the guys play soccer. I think. In the end, boys and girls came back in wet. The girls came from the swimming pool, where they were chased out from. Haha...didn't I tell them not to go out of the premises at night??Anyway, they couldn't find Celine to hug so they wanted to hug me instead. But in the end, I managed to secure my dry condition. Yeah. Had a great bonding time with Benjamin and Joshua while the others were out. =)

Night came and some of us decided not to sleep. Mainly Xueting, Alicia, Xiu Mei, Xuan Yi and myself. Haha, but close to 4 am...

We slept.

5 in a bed, super squashed. We played truth or dare and were forced to say who's the cutest guy in cell. -_- And Alicia was so fated to answer that question again and again...HAHAHA. In the end, the girls ran out of truth questions to ask me so they made me do a STUPID dare.

In the middle of the night, 3 plus am I was to call Sherron's name 3 times. Unfortunately for me (we didn't know till Alvin told me..) the guys were awake when that happened!!! After a few minutes, there were frantic knocks on the girls' doors and I asked who it was and it was...Sherron.

From that moment on...

I am completely speechless. I shall have to wear a mask daily.

Sherron wanted to borrow our aircon remote control and then he went back to his room. We spend some time talking about mormons...for no good reason. Before Alicia wanted to sleep. So SHE TOOK UP THE MOST SPACE. She slept at the furthest end away from the headboard, followed by me, Xuan Yi, Xiu Mei and Xueting.

Initially, Xueting was sleeping beside Xuan Yi and Xiu Mei. But apparently, Xueting's body temperature was higher than average and so the two beside her felt too hot to sleep. So they made her sleep at the furthest end, haha, the poor soul. I was freezing the whole night. One blanket was taken by Xiu Mei and Xueting, Xuan yi had her jacket with her and Alicia had the other blanket. But. When I tried to pull Alicia's blanket, she only held tighter to them and so I ended up huddling beside Xuan Yi instead.

Since all of us aren't as small as we presumed we were, we could only sleep in supine position. Can't turn sideways at all. In the end, we all woke up cramped. Haha. So many handphones were ringing but Xuan Yi couldn't wake up at 6 am until Jocelyn suddenly burst into the room at 6.30 and all of us on the bed jumped. Then we fell back asleep and I woke up to my alarm at 8.

Took a quick shower and then popped down to the dining room for breakfast. Joshua and I were the only ones awake then, the others were either sleeping or had already gone off to school. Sooo...we clean up as much as possible and then went to call the others. I had to inspect the rooms and seeing as I like order and neatness, every single thing was to be put back in place. Including making of beds and hanging up towels.

It paid off, the person inspecting was impressed with our cleanliness. Hahaha! I can't tell you how my head swelled again after it was deflated the night before. The guys left early so the girls and Joshua were left to clean up the dining table but after inspection, we sat at the living room and stoned there. Alicia began telling seriously lame jokes and riddles until her parents came to save the day.^.^ It took some more time for the rest of us to start walking down to church to put some stuff in. On the way, I noticed a leaf hanging in midair and so I was like, 'down here got spider web.' Indeed, I found a large spider web followed by a PALM SIZED, BLACK SPIDER hanging onto the web. SUPERRR DISGUSTINGGGG.

Finally at church, put down stuff. Joshua went missing so we had to wait for him to claim his bag. At the mean time, we were also fighting hard against sleeping and so we started pinpointing the handsome kindergarten kids. Haaa...i didn't see much pretty girls...but the boys, a handful are guarateed to grow up handsome provided nothing happened to them on their way. Joshua was being mean by laughing at some songs I had in my ipod...but I was really too tired and too bothered to actually be really angry at him. I really really want someone to send me home in his car...but then...Renhao wasn't going home any time soon so he couldn't drive me home today...=( Xiu mei and I strolled to our bus stops and then I chugged my way back home.

Haha, oh gosh. My eyes are closing already. I am happy!! I managed to finish ALL MY CHORES. I made the beds, dusted surfaces, swept the floor and mopped it, clean the toilets, ironed the clothes, washed the dirty clothes and now my eyes are closingggggg. I did a total facial wash meaning from facial cleanser to scrub to toner to face mask and then moisturizer and now I'm feeling pretty good~ Don't think the pimples will grow out from all that BBQing and perspiration and games...and CHOCOLATES. Yum...we bought 8 3-packed Fero Rocher but there were 4 packs left in the end so I snatched one and ate them. Hee.

Camp was a success I think. =) Brought back lots of things and more importantly, CELL BONDED. Yeah. I shall sleep soon. Any grammer or vocabulary errors please pardon me.

I found this in deviantart. hahaha. Some doesn't make sense. At all. But it is still fun to play and kill time while waiting for the toilet to be vacated.

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.Say the following questions aloud, and press play.Use the song titles that come up to answer each question.

How does the world see me? Overprotected- Britney Spears

Will I have a happy life? Something about you- Five for Fighting. (???what is tt supposed to mean?)

What do people really think of me?Just a girl- No doubt (Sob.)

Do people secretly lust after me? Slow- Kylie Minogue (Another 'what is tt supposed to mean?')

How can I make myself happy? Fukai Mori - Do as infinity (eh...what does fukai mori mean?)

What should I do with my life? My sacrifice- Creed

Will I ever have children? Feeling good- Michael Buble (hahaha)

What is some good advice for me? Dance with me- Justin Timberlake (HAHAHA)

What do I think my current theme song is? Pieces of me- Ashlee Simpson

What does everyone else think my current theme song is? Year 3000- Busted

What song will play at my funeral? Sometimes you can't make it on your own- U2 (...tiow?)

What type of men/women do you like? Falling away from me- Korn. (Tt's not true! I don't like men who fall away from me.)

What is my day going to be like? Flying without wings- Ruben Stuudard (of course! Since i finished all my chores!)

Why am I here? My will- ??? (Um...)

What will people remember me for? Counterfeit- Limp Bizkit (that'll be super sad.)

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow? Fragile- Sting

Are there people outside waiting to take me away? Crashed the wedding- Busted

What will this year be all about? wo yong yuan xiang xin. (?? Believe in what?)

Haa..ok. The toilet is free now, I need to shower. Check this out, super touching: http://livedigital.com/AFOd2gAjNw/content/52110

It reminds me of what exactly is childlike faith. It reminds me of...I don't know. It's just so moving...Yesh, so have some patience and wait till the clip has downloaded and go watch!

Guess what? I found out today of 3 other people with the same birthday as me, also of the same age as meee. Hoho, what a huge coincidence eh? The first is a guy from Friendster, who is my cousin's friend. The second is this NS guy in church and the NS cell sort of celebrated my birthday as well since...I think like, I know most of them??? Then third is Faith!! Haha, whom I got to know through Easter rehearsals.

The production crew for Easter production sang the 'happy birthday' song to Faith and I, haha. And so did the dance ministry. SUPER LOUD. So many ppl were just staring larh. Haha, but yesh it is sweet. Service was awesome, what more can I say? Anyway, I finally found that jacket that I was searching for and THIS THING IS LAGGING BADLY. Anyway, we had dinner at Sakae Sushi. Then popped down to Haagen Daaz or however you spell it, and got chocolate fondue (which isn't VERY nice...but ok larh) and then back to home where I got a durian birthday cake. Hoho, made from authentic durians. =)

That pretty much sums up my day. From tomorrow onwards, my mum will be away to Jakarta meaning I have to cook, clean and wash. And I really don't know how to operate the stupid washing machine. Yeah...I'm spoilt. It's time I get back up and start working on my domestic skills.